Tuesday, March 25, 2008 Y

ok. back for a short one.

*initially it was meant to be a short one.*

i promised huee and nah that i will be blogging about the outing. AND I DID.

it's just that i haven insert all the photos and stuffs and so, being saved as draft.
well, im trying to edit the photos and can also use this as an excuse to play around with photoshop chance to take a break when im feeling tired from doing homework.

homework? yes. recently am VERY enthu in doing an completing homework. today my friend ask me wan copy or not. i say NO. IT'S BAD TO COPY ESPECIALY WHEN NOW IS ONLY THE BEGINING.

*clap clap*

anyway. thanks bryan to assist me in completing the chem tutorial. i really dont know how to do sia T.T

like what bryan says, COPY WITH UNDERSTANDING, and i really go and digest when he teach me how to do sia (over the phone) . and, kanna him say dumb and slow T.T

well. i gonna pia hard for mid year and promos.

mid year targets as follow :
General Paper - >C
Physics - >B
Chemistry - >C
Maths - A
History - >C
Chinese - A

of course, im going to work towards my target, unlike last time say no do.
*those with '>' means at least the grade mentioned*

NAPHA? hahahahha. GOLD. i wanna maintain my gold all the way!
*yes yes, gold for 7yrs since pri sch! HLHLHL =p*

alright. my next post will most likely to be on outings and stuffs le.

try to fill in all blanks as long as im free.

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yesterday while talking to nahnah, she ask me to communicate more with my mum. she says my mum loves me. I KNOW. but. somethings cant be explained in just a few words. dont communicate doesnt mean i dont care about her either can.

just somehow had a tiny argument with mama. she nagged that i kept returning home late recently. but then, mostly school days i went to library to do my homework and stuffs with friends ma. no doubt there will be mini gaigai session though. but she was somehow displeased with the fact that she cant wash my school uniform.

papa ask me to help hang the clothes after the machine ok le. and i agreed cause i knew they are tired. and hanging only take up like 15minutes of my time. at most cut down the time for msn lo. so i agreed ma. but den. due to the fact that im rather forgetful, i only remember when papa open his room de door to check. in the end, the clothes are ready for hanging, mama came out of the room and 'nagged' at me. saying i always so late, make til both them had to stay up late to hang the clothes also.

and so. i got abit pissed off and shouted back 'i say i hang le ma. you go sleep la' *in chinese, with quite a pissed tone* but honestly. they repeat the same thing over and over and over again for times. kinda irritating de can.

it's really not i dont wanna communicate with them and tell them how im doing now. honestly, im fine. really fine. with helpful and nice friends around helping me to clear doubts on questions im stucked with. (in short, doing 'indirect copying' or copy-with-understanding like what bryan says.) but, everyday is either i come home they sleep le, or they come home i sleep, or i go out they also go out, or i go out they at home, or i at home they go out... EITHER one. somehow time we meet is like. so so so so pathetic little now. how to communicate?

but what ever it is. i know they love me lots and what they do is FOR MY OWN GOOD. of course. parents are grestest. they brought me to earth and feed and clean me from a small little baby till i grow till so old18yrs and 3months and 1day old now. and they will still be supporting me for some more years before i can go out to work in the society. (at least like 6 to about 8 more years)

recalling back, this year, i had given my parents alot of 'heart-attacks'. firstly, i say i wanna quit RP and go MI. although it's cause i made up my mind to get into U. secondly, i say i wanna do hair extension. (my parents are somehow abit traditional that they dont really approve this kinda 'fashionable' thing de). thirdly, SECRET. but really kinda heart attack also.

felt guilty, but the understanding them always gave in to the stubborn me. and so? i have to really work hard now to not let them down again.

anyway, since i reached this point, i shall just do some 'explanation'. reason for so much wanting to enter U is cause, i have an uncle (dad's cousin who is just like 20+) studying in NTU now. but he was from msia. not that i look down on msian or what (i used to be msian-.-) but, im just wondering. how come they can but i cant?

all my grandma's bro's children (uncle's parents) are very smart. either graduated from msia U, or also study till quite a high level. BUT, none from my grandparents side can. their children (dad and siblings) cant possible turn back time and study. neither do they have the ability to back then. (money and stuffs. yea.)

my cousin (older than me by one yr), the eldest grandchild cant do that either. he is clever but dont want to study. and hence he is currently working. the cousin's sister? cant also. she is the hardworking type but just cant really score. five other cousins (aunt's children. yes all five hers.) cant too. they, dont have ability to. (in term of knowledge >.<)

my sibilings? meimei is the hardworking but cant really score type, but currently she is doing well in her studies. which she might be possible to enter U if she get into JC next yr. (i bet she cant go U if she go poly). didi? clever but lazy also. so can heck him liao. only hope he will realise it before his O and strive for that.

so? im somehow the only one left to fight the face back for my parents and grandparents. of course, it's not all about 'fighting back the face' either. alot of consideration was being put in too. things like, i would have to put aside time to revise and study and etc. (so far so good) and etc. and so. i made this choice to go MI and take my A to go U.

i wanna enter U to do my grandparents (of both mum's and dad's side) proud. i want them to say "I HAVE A GRAND DAUTHER STUDYING IN SPORE'S U!"

nothing much i will ask for. i only want my friends and ESP family to be there to support me.

anyway. if meimei get into JC next year, we will be taking the same A papers. WHICH I DIE DIE DONT WANT TO LOSE TO HER. and i mean it.

i remember some years back then, mum's friends were like talking about going to old folks' home when they are old. and then i say. I WONT LET MY PARENTS GO TO OLD FOLKS' HOME de!

and i really mean it de.


i really do love my parents lots lots. really do.

chianahnah, how about telling ur mama about this -.-

p.s. i really need 48hours a day):

**back to homework**