Tuesday, August 12, 2008 Y

remember that day i told you we shall bathed in cold water 'together' i had been really doing so for this few days.

i got so proud of myself and wanted to tell you that this is 'preparation' to be mrs. lim. HAHA.

NOW? i swallowed it down. and laugh at myself for being so stupid.

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i wanted to tell you. how much i used to want you to fail your paper again, so that you wont go back to JJ. yet on another hand, i hoped you dont for fear you will have to leave MI and ended up 'school-less'. in the end. i chose to wish you to pass instead.

that happened long ago. i chose to tell you before you go for your paper is because i want you to know that since months ago, there's this lady down here wishing that you will be able to pass your paper this time round, and i know that you wont want to disappoint everyone who believes in you; you will do your best.

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i want to tell you, even if you were to fall again, there still me down here for you no matter what. i told you before, but i just want to remind you again.

even if you were to fall times and times over again, i will still be there for you.

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i want to tell you, i never find you a lousy boyfriend, even though i felt that sometimes you really dont understand me. maybe im just to hard to understand. so, i dont expect you to change to suit me. but i will change myself to suit you instead.

"you dont have to change a thing, i love you just the way you're"

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i have so much so much more to tell you. but i think one simple sentence of feelings i wanted to convey screwed everything up.

i dont want to understand what your sms meant. i dont want it to be what i think it is. maybe i will skip school tomorrow for just in case.